Things to get me by... hopefully

1. Crazy amounts of oovoo pics to look back on 

2.  Reese's and a pretty journal 

3. My silly bald headed bird 

(shes very anti-social)

4. His boot camp calendar (makes me feel like i can somewhat know what hes doing and what he's going through)

5. Letters pre- written to me by him, one for every every two days that he's gone. Plus a book he wrote on our story, from our young middle school days to now  (about 6 years). Oh and Video diaries! But, i cant read every letter at once nor see all the videos at once, its assigned day by day and i promised not to peek. Torture. 

Last note:

It's hard, doing all of this, being a part of this, and dealing with this. It's so hard. But i love him. He's my best friend, and It's hard. This is my first night without talking to him. Day one and I'm already feeling the void. Imagine the rest of the days to come... I hope i have the strength to keep on going with this. It honestly is the most extreme version of the waiting game that i could ever possibly imagine. I think I'll start writing my first letter to him now, I'm sure he's doing the same. If i feel this way, imagine how he must feel. I hope he's okay. 

Have a lovely night, 

Stephanie